I finally nailed it... Now I know what I've been totally missing That is.. Well, an outlet And here goes It seems quite odd that a lotta things to ponder about can all pour in the oddest, weirdest yet simplest way.. And here are the things I should have written long ago: 1. I envy people who can now and again update their blogs 2. I want to make some sort of 360-degree changes in my life a. I want to try some if not all (ha!, tapang) kinds of sports b. Write again (ehem, which I'm doing right now, yipee! that's a start) c. Hike, trek... go to the wilds.. wherever there are fields, scenic views and the like d. Escape from all the chaos in the metro area e. Find a confidant (a stranger perhaps) Basta someone i can totally tell things about me without worrying about what he could think about me... 3. I want to buy a lotta things but just can't seem to make up my mind which to prioritize. But moreso, where on earth to find a gold mine to make all those dreams come to reality 4. I wish I can buy a house.. my own.. maybe I really do wanna move out and handle things myself... 5. I ardently hope that I can reconcile all the conflicting thoughts in my head...be able to decide which is more reasonable and important than the other... 6. I wish I can deal with the pressures around me... Stressful as it is, I hope I don't lose my mind thinking of who to listen to ... 7. I hope I will be able to decide where to go, what to want, mostly, what to do. 8. I hope I can be able to tell when "it's time" 9. I wish I can decode or decipher sighs, signals and all that ... 10. Lastly, I wish I will be able to find sanity to gather, sort and control all the weird, odd, senseful, senseless thoughts in my mind (hahahha) And from this little step right here, I wish, hope and pray I will be able to do some if not all of these in God's time, t my benefit (hehehehe) I so miss writing. Nothing beats pouring it all out. Now I feel like I lost 10 pounds hehehe...

People ask me why People tell, “Go ahead and try” And yet For years I have tried I have cried And yet What is wrong with being alone? If I see no need to be with someone What is wrong with opting to be free? When I am enjoying myself as company Is happiness found when you are with someone? Can you not be happy when you have no one? Will I die if I grow an old maiden? Besides, I can’t just pick some guy and be married all of a sudden. Often times I wonder Of how I it feels like to be loved Often times, I dream Of how I can show my affection to someone And yet Nothing happens No one comes Perhaps, it’s a punishment for dreaming so long For wondering too much Sometimes, I fear I have exhausted my imagination Sometimes I feel I should stop And yet I don’t Why? I tried. And yet I’m still here Alone.

I am not sure what comes into my head but every time I see a distinct face or reaction, I try to capture it... I guess I just believe that pictures can really tell stories. With this, I'd like to share some of the few faces that have captured my attention... To the people whose faces belong here, forgive me for not asking your permission.

After eight long years, I finally got to talk to my long lost friend the wonders friendster can do... Lyssa! It was really nice to know you're ok ... Now i won't ave to worry every time I see you in my dreams... How I wish we can do the things we use to do back in high school.. heheheh The days that were...

ohwell.. here i go again... after months of ranting for a break, i got my break. 9 months to be exact and since it's been taking so long, i decided to take the chance of returning to the company i left.. and to my surprise, it accepted me, immediately, with open arms... well with what's been said and done, i do hope i will be wiser this time. i hope i won't snap again and stowaway. I hope this time, i learned my lesson... manage my time.. choose my priorities and do what I'm supposed to do. ironic, yeah, could be.. but i think here is where i belong...

Huh! I'm freakin' tired! Im freakin' tired of just sitting around, all day... for so long... grrrrr ... grr! Un lang (O,o)